Dumaan ako ng Balay Cancellor
kahapon. Nag weights weights tapos WATCH MORE TV. Hindi ko naabutan
si Baryon or yung Cancellor. Pero nakita ko yung baby na kampon ni Bigay
naglalakad lakad sa bahay, naka sando pero walang under garments.
Nagkakalat ng bad vibes.
Galing UP,
habang naglalakad ako sa Commonwealth Avenue sa tapat ng Iglesia Central, may
nakita akong parang U2 spy plane. Pero masyadong mababa ang altitude
siguro. Basta itim siya at mukha siyang Flying Cross. It was
circling around a small specific area in UP. Paranoid-delusions and
hallucinations.
In my dreams I saw a thousand
silver objects in the sky. Pero household items, silver plates, pots, and
pans... Parang may nag composite nung mga UFO hoax photos. The
Reversed Magician and the Fool's Sister lie together in discarded paper. A
frozen mallow, wrapped in foil, flies into my room and I am crazy enough to eat
it. Dumating yung isang witch, nag-usap kami sandali tapos walanna, na
gising na ako.
Nahirapan na
talaga ako mag distinguish between fantasy and reality. Hindi ko na alam
kung ano ang difference ng memory and dreams and imagination. To me they
are all just thoughts. Which comes first? Thought or reality?
Chicken or egg?
Today (Saturday) is my last
rest day before a week's worth of activities. May gig kami bukas so hindi
ko mapapanood ng live yung Silverstone. Humirit si Irvine tungkol kay
Hill. The band will also be the guest of some radio show, will perform at
the re-opening of Freedom Bar (they have been closed for months para sa
renovation), will have another gig at Gotham, has a meeting with Sony boss Tato
Malay... and of course practice and study of new songs to play. Parang
sarariman na ako ah.
Hindi ko pa
napapanood ang Episode I. Okay ba? Na-associate ko kasi ang Star
Wars sa Jailhouser kalokohan. Tapos bida pa si Natalie Portman. Eh
JAILED? na nga ako manonood pa ako non? Baka maniwala na ulet ako sa Diyos
niyan. Kasi naawa! I AM GOD HERE! <avatar ni Body
Parts>
Ayos ang ikot ng Pinwheel
ngayon. Every member has settled into their roles and we are like some
well-oiled machine. Ang ganda ng tugtugan and we have been winning fans
everywhere. Now all I have to do is find ways to handle my
psychosis. Actually kaya ako dumaan ng Balay Cancellor kahapon kasi may
tatanong sana ako kay Baryon tungkol sa mental illness ko.
