Kahapon may ortho check-up dapat ako. For the first time since I got these braces installed I missed an appointment. Waratutak na talaga ito. I can't even fulfill the simplest of commitments. Nag pa re-sked ako for next week. Ano kaya ang state of mind ko by then?

Today I have practice with Pinwheel. Nag aral na kami ng mga Imp songs, particularly "I have been counting sheep for so long" (yung kinanta ko sa Quill Kalokohan noon) yung tungkol sa temptation of Jesus Christ at yung "This Hungry Mouth" (kanta ng vagrant). Mukhang natuwa naman ang band members sa bagong songs. May ina aral din kaming kanta ni Minco na ang title ay "Another Girl."

Wala na akong makausap dito. All my friends have become strangers. All the strangers say they are my friends. Hindi ko na alam kung ano talaga ang ibig sabihin ng mga sinasabi ko at naririnig ko. All input and output has hypermeaning when set against the context of The Story.

Mahirap pala mag hyperlogic. Pang expert ito. I'm just a kid who stumbled onto the secret of the universe. Nag research ako tungkol kay James Joyce at Nihilism at siyempre tungkol sa AI. Ewan ko kung nakatulong ito sa psychosis ko.

Buti na lang malungkot akong tao by default. Whenever I feel the quickening I don't do anything destructive to any person. Physically destructive, that is. Sometimes I feel like I am moving faster than light. I don't know if I can handle the stress any longer.

I am like the prodigal son. I took my share of the fortune and went on an adventure. I got lost but I found my way home. Except when I got home my family don't live there no more. And they didn't leave any clue as to where they are living now. So here I am, alone in my house with all these toys.

Heaven is when you don't know anything and you don't ask questions.
Hell is when everything you know is wrong and you don't ask questions.
Life is a very long sentence that ends with a ?

Ang galing nung bagong Skywatch.
IN TIME YOU WILL KNOW
Nostradamus predicted that the world would end this summer
Why are so many Japanese taking him seriously?
We conNECt

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The Foolhardy

BROKEN HEART - another independently designed engine that runs on Entropy
HYPERLOGIC UNIT - installed in the brain, this gives the person the delusion of genius, or false intelligence, and a growing insanity
SPIRIT OF CHAOS - alam niyo na ito
ARMOR OF DOUBT - will deflect any kind of non-physical (magical, psionic, etc.) attack, also allows the wearer to slip through cracks in the universe
EQUIVOCATION BOX - sort of like a Universal Translator, except the words that come out cause confusion, panic, fear, etc., there is also a positive equivocation setting (for the ladies) and allows the user to speak with animals as well
JESTER PROGRAM - when installed, gives the user several artistic abilities
FREEALITY PATCH - tanong niyo kay Baryon
PERSONAL HELL - like a snail or a turtle, the Foolhardy carries his home on his back
FACE OF FEAR - a magic mirror mask, also functions as fear or charm aura
FRACTAL PROJECTORS - yosimuna
WILD CARD - the object is changing all the time
FAILSAFE DEVICE - use only when all else fails