L> Ayaw ko na muna asikasuhin ang problemang ito. Escapist. Nakakatamad mag ayos ng mga ganitong bagay. Bahala na ang social entropy sa kasong ito (©Hector).

Funny how he says this. The way he runs his life is escapist. It's ironic.

Besides, why did you think you worsened matters by sending out that SOS call? I *did* get angry, but only in my letter to you, where I explained my frustrations about øLagoon. Why did you misconstrue that to mean I got angrier? I mean, I sent out a pretty civil letter to the CNN. Now øLagoon doesn't want to deal with it. He calls our behavior escapist. Big talk from someone who no longer wants to live because of all the shit he thinks he's been through. Big talk from someone who dumps his 'dream' of becoming a famous rock star simply because Dis quit. Big talk from someone who once advised me to take a vacation when I had so much work to do at the office (ø: That's the best time to go away, when you have so much to do, S: It's called responsibility. You do not run away from responsibility).

Dissect my letter to the CNN. Nobody has responded. Nobody will. øLagoon, I believe, leads the pack. If he responds and tells the CNN he did, people will follow. That's what I think. I don't know if you see this at all, but he exerts enormous influence over your brothers. Enormous. More so than you, I think. I mean, they respect you greatly, almost more than anybody else... but as far as emulation is concerned, they all follow the lead of øLagoon. I don't know. That's the way I see it. Correct me if I'm wrong, please, because I honestly have difficulty seeing otherwise. I'd like to hear your opinion on the matter because we've never discussed it.

Why did you say that I got angrier? And in CNN, too? I mean, didn't you read my justifications? Don't you think it's rude to respond to someone who just greeted you an honest-to-goodness happy birthday greeting, even though it's late, with "anong magagawa ko, parati ka namang late, eh." If you think that's proper behavior, please tell me. I got angry because I think it's rude. I don't think we have the same concept of lambastos. Maybe it's because you aren't a usual target. I don't know why you had to say 'lalo lang atang nagalit. Hindi na po mauulit, sorry po, sorry po.' I mean, didn't I say I'd try to fix it?

Ah. Whatever. Life goes on with it's strange ways.

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I don't think we should be disappointed to find that we don't have all the answers. It's well enough that we can ask at all.