Sorry for just cutting myself off. I imagine that could have been a mistake. I also suppose that it was a mistake that I didn't talk to everybody. I suppose it was a mistake to think that discussing it only with ĝLagoon. So maybe those were all wrong. If that's the case, I apologize.
Don't think any more of it. My annoyance of what I viewed as disconcerting, improper behavior is just that, an annoyance. An annoyance that I decided I didn't want to bear. I decided I didn't want to bother with it. So I left.
A>is why did you not even try to talk seriously to them. Lagoon says that
>you could have written something about the lambastos getting out of
>hand, telling them how you are hurt by them.
That's a whole load of crap. You've known for quite a while how I felt about lambastos. I HATE it, you all know that. I HATE lambastos. Do I have to say it again and again and again before you stop that behavior? Do I have to dissect WHY I hate lambastos before you cease to do it? Here's the point: you DON'T have to stop lambastos. You're free to keep on doing it. That's freedom. That's chaos, maybe, I don't know. But in the same vein, if you want to keep on doing it, I'm free to drop out and not have to deal with it.
A>makes it appear even more insulting than it seems. Dis and yourself have
>been the target of these lambastos mainly because they don't see or hear
>from you very often.
If the way you deal with people you don't see is to treat them with contempt or even mock insults which are hardly discernible from the real thing, then I don't want to deal with it. I, as a 'jailhouser', do not converse at that level. We're still friends, don't get me wrong. I just don't want to participate in a pseudo-mailing list where insults, however flat or understated they may be, are a regular thing. So it's an alternate reality. So what? It's the only reality we more or less regularly interact in.
So you no longer get regular mail from me. So? This doesn't mean that we're no longer friends. I want to join GTIV, after all. And I apologize for not having brought back the VHS tapes. I haven't been industrious enough to make my way to the College. So I don't chat, or mail you. So? I still consider you my closest friends, and you're always welcome at my house, or my apartment, when the time comes. I just decided to drop out of the CNN because I don't like the way conversations in that 'alternate reality' go. If you can't see that, then fine. It's exactly why I dropped out. I don't have to go through it all over again. You declare and nullify a lambastos ban whenever you feel like it, anyway.
In any case, I'm sorry for offending anybody. I didn't want to. Maybe I meant to, I'm not so sure. Don't talk about it anymore. Don't discuss it, or if you do, send me mail personally. I'm not on the CNN. This isn't CNN. You can still mail me. Please, feel free to do so. I'd prefer that. Intimate conversations. A whole load of conspiracy theories. Ask me why, ask me how, ask me anything. I'll answer. That's that.
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s a i n t
I don't think we should be disappointed to find that we don't have all the
answers. It's well enough that we can ask at all.