>SAINT. This is a formal declaration of my intent to join the GTIV
>tournament tentatively scheduled for next April. This may also serve as
>my excommunication notice from the CNN.
>
>LAGOON. Ano to? Gusto mong sumali sa GT IV, pero ayaw mo na kaming
>kausapin? Hindi ito lambastos. Paki-explain.
>
I don't like the CNN. It's a supposed alternate reality where Hector, Vector, and occasionally you have the license to be rude through lambastos. It's not constructive, and it's the reason why I left the CNN in the past. The reason I leave now is that I am sympathizing with Dis. I can still send updates to you or to Agham, and I certainly still plan to drop by the college every blue moon... it's just that behavior of some of the participants in the CNN do not know how to conduct themselves in respectful, proper dialogue. I don't care if it's an 'alternate reality'. Dis has a lot of other friends he can write who treat him with respect.

>JOEL (whispered to Lagoon) Twebty-three years [sic] Pasensya ka na at
>medyo huli itong greeting ko, marami kasi akong problema at iniisip
>ngayon.
>
>LAGOON. Palagi ka namang late eh. Ano pa magagawa ko? Naubos na ang
>pasensya ko sa iyo noon pa. Kaya nga nag DISband ang Imp eh.
>
This is an example of that. The guy just greeted you a Happy Birthday, for crying out loud. So he was late, like he almost always is, so instead of thanking him for the gesture, you lambast his effort and bring up the dirty matter of your disbanding. What did you want him to say? Why do you always look at that side of a matter?

What is wrong? Is it any wonder Dis left at all? He's always at everybody's mercy, always at the bottom of the pecking order. If it's not his turn, it's mine. The first time Dis wrote again, you know what the response was? Somebody said, 'may lambastos-fodder na naman si Dis'. Why should he bother at all with that kind of behavior? He thanked you for the poster that you made, and you reply by lambastos.

We will not meet eye to eye on this. You will have your reasons and justifications for behaving in this manner, and I have my reasons for not liking them. I have always tried not to force any expectations on you. I respect your intelligence enough to let you make your own decisions, even if I do not agree with some of them. We, more than most friends, believe in different things; but this is what also keeps us friends. We've been through a lot, and I'm explaining to you now why Dis cannot stand being on the CNN any longer. He will not justify himself with a response because he believes it will just be the source of more lambastos. And if you ask me, I think he's right. Nothing he writes is free from attack. If you don't think he's being picked on, well, I'm sorry, but it certainly feels that way from his end.

As far as IMP is concerned, why bother to bring it up again if you're really bitter about it? Dis plays music to this very day. He plays because he loves music. He plays guitar and is learning bass because it gives him enjoyment. If he were in a band, all he'd really want from it was that it would give him a chance to play. He can just jam for hours, or just listen to music. What about you now? Do you still want to play at all? You tell me you're bored with music. You tell me you don't like playing with your sister's band. I don't get it. You have music in your genes, but you choose not to exercise it. I don't know what it is you want. Ene and I talk about things and she sometimes confides in me about her frustrations. I share some of them.

Sometimes, your behavior alienates people. It has alienated Dis, and it sometimes alienates even me. You're very, very xenophobic. People are either part of the college or they are not. If they are not, they suffer your contempt and sometimes your ridicule. Why? I don't know why. I just wish Dis was a little more patient, but he's tired of it.

>Hahanap hanapin niyo yung CNN nung early January, tapos ngayong back to
>normal na, ayaw niyo na. Ah, >kasi na kuwento niyo na yung mga babae at
>buhay niyo. Kaya okay na kayo, tama na muna. Sasali na lang >kayo ng CNN
>ulet kapag may bago na kayong ipagyayabang. CNN at your own convenience.
>Wala kayong >pakialam sa mga pangyayari sa iba, lalo na yung mga nasa Big
>in Japan. Puro sa inyo lang.

Again, another way of looking at things. Dis stopped because when he wrote and everybody replied to it, lambastos ang inabot niya. And you instead chose to see it as though we were selfish. Well, you have every right to do that. Excuse me, but I maintain correspondence with Agham. If you choose to perpetuate this point of view, then fine. Me, I don't want any part of it.

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