Okey sa akin ang GTIV. Hindi ko lang pinapadala sa CNN at baka ma-extend lang ang 8th Theist rule. The truth is, for the past few posts, matino ang usapan, but I venture to think that it's also probably because of our, or more specifically, Dis' absence.

About the F-91's particle cannon... well, I frankly don't think it *looks* like a particle cannon. It really makes more sense to consider it a coolant ejector because of the enormous heat the psychoframe+biocomputer generates. This holds true to what is essentially the F-91's successor, the Crossbone Gundam 1. What I can't explain is the simultaneous ejection of the coolant and the explosion of the Lafressia. But, in my humble opinion, that doesn't warrant turning what has, through the X-1, been shown to be a coolant/ventilation port into a (deadly) weapon. As far as the after-images are concerned, those things are actually supposed to have mass... right? Made out of Minovsky particles, which has been drawn through the shoulder fins (in effect, the fins draw Minovsky, and when the F-91 moves, some sort of Minovsky-particle 'shell' is left behind). I don't know. This is weird.

Anyway, how are you doing? I feel terrible here. I just had one impacted wisdom tooth extracted yesterday because it had developed infections that would have endangered my life. The side of my face is swollen like hell, and I look awful. I'm taking all these antibiotics and I'm confined to what is basically a liquid diet. I get recurring fevers, and I'm having trouble with my speech. The swelling is due to abate in three to five days. Next Saturday, though, I'm scheduled for another surgery... this time on the right side. I don't know if I want to do that awake anymore. Yeasterday's surgery was sheer torture. They had to drill around the bone itself to free the injurious bastard tooth. That's why the swelling is so huge now (I swear, I look like a melon!!!), because it was essentially a major oral surgical procedure. It touched bone, and the bleeding can be terrible (yesterday, I bled about a cupful). I feel awful.

The upside is that I have e-mail contact with Nina. Her agency there in Bangkok has a three-month old computer which her host graciously allows her to use for personal correspondence. I'm so ecstatic. Never mind the pain. Screw the swelling. We also get to have short talks on the phone, but I reckon our bill is now into the three thousands. A ten-minute call cost me about 450Php before. We also fax each other letters occasionally. I miss her so much. The separation was so intense for her that she told me, half-jokingly, that we should get married legally by the time she gets back. I told her we'd talk about it.

In all seriousness, I *do* want to marry her as soon as possible, but there are so many things to consider. That's why I told her we'd talk about it. Because we're moving in together, anyway (along with Joel and their other brother, Troy). But there are so many legal adjustments I have to make... I have to change my status in the company roster, which will allow me company benefits. I have to work out so many things first, and I don't want to sound like I'm afraid of marrying her. Becasue I'm not. It's one of the things I'm sure I want to do. But the schedule just might be a little sooner than anyone expected.

Help me out a little here, buddy. I'm at the age where my father married my mom and had me. I *know* who I want to marry... but the question is WHEN? Thanks, Agham.

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