Saint wrote:

> I can't stand it. The distance, the silence, the absence. The distance
> is
> invisible, the silence is invisible, and the absence is invisible... I
>
> cannot see my tragedy but I know it exists. Who among you know this?
> Jesse,

Being physically far apart is a very painful thing for two people who love each other very much. No matter what they say about being together in spirit, if she is not there physically, you feel incomplete. You try to soothe your pain by doing what you have done and going to where you have gone, but it also reinforces the fact that you are *alone*. Trying to keep busy with your work sometimes helps buffer some of the pain. But what if you hate your work? Then it only strengthens the pain. Even when you are dead tired from work, you find it very difficult to sleep if you don't know what's happening to her. It is true what they say about silence being deafening. The pain of separation does get somewhat easier to bear over time. Try counting down the days until her return -- it helps a little. Also, make sure you don't lose touch with each other. Constant communication is very important. I have found that frequent short phone calls are much more soothing than less common but longer duration calls. Just hang in there because, in the end, everything will work out as it should. Keep saying to yourself how lucky you are to have found her at last and that this sacrifice you both are going through will be for a better future.During her absence, you are going to hate seeing other couples walking or talking in the street. You also become so much more prone to crying when watching dramas on TV or at the movies. You would also be in a state when you always want to talk about her to everybody. Just remember that everything that is happening is for strengthening your relationship. Hang in there and everything will work out just fine.

--Agham