Pasensya na kayo at naging AWOL ako this past week or so. Things have been happening to me that could determine the kind of life I will live the next few years. I think Pinwheel is my last chance at fame. If it doesn't happen with this band malabo na siguro.
I think I've reached a crossroad in my life. Siguro by the end of 1998 I will know if I'm going to be famous or I'm going to be some obscure, forgotten guy. Kaya sa Pinwheel muna ang focus ko. Kailangan eh. I don't have a degree to fall back on. If I don't do well with this band there's not much left for me to do. Without Pinwheel I am nobody.
This means there will be a marked reduction in my participation in CN activities. Baka maging Jailhouse level of commitment muna ako. Sorry din kay Pagan dahil hindi ako nakapag Sendoff. Parang naging non-existent si Pagan sa akin ah. Birth anniversary pa pala ng MGA TWINS. Para namang napaka inadequate ko nyan eh <NEV>.
